Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Happy New Year!!!!!

..Well of course it is already new years but figured I would send out a message..life is as crazy as usual just the old holiday got me running everywhere! But it is a good thing, I like to be busy, but I am glad it is over.....

...I have lots on my mind and just feel the need to write about it...so sit back it might be pretty long...lol...well not to long...just stuff I think about. I have to start out by saying one word...ASSUMPTIONS...they always make asses of us and I dont know why we do it. I am definately guilty of assuming and with talking to someone new here at work he has made me seen the light. He is an interesting person, someone I have worked with for a while and never really got to know until recently. I am the kind of person that when something is on my mind or if I have questions about things I just ask ppl whats up and if they lie and say nothing or just make up some bullshit story well I am left to assume. Hearing a lot of shit here at work enables us all to assume and I am not one to gossip but sometimes I am interested in hearing it...hey who isnt?? half the time it is all wrong. Like one rumor I heard was a particular person was dating someone else here at work, well how the assumption came about is seeing them together all the time. I have to admit I thought that too until I confronted that person. So one night we had a christmas party and I ended up talking to him and saying whats up and what is going on with you and such and such. Well he just laughed and said he is sick of ppl assuming crap and that is how rumors start. So I just took that in stride and moved on to the next social clique and thought ok well he is telling the truth and it doesnt matter to me what he does...so here is the weird thing I am out and about, going shopping and who do I see??? Them together all the time!! I am just wondering because I was talking to him earlier that night and he said he was going to be out with his friend from away....maybe I should stop here and say that I am not interested in him romantically..he is a sweetheart, but him and I see our future going down different paths. But I have to be honest and say yes I thought about it. So anyways here I go again on with my assumptions, the sad thing is I dont know why I am wondering these stupid thoughts. First off they dont reflect my life in any way shape or form. Just something stupid I guess. And I have learned from personal situations that most of the time when I assume or hear someone else's assumption on a situation I have been wrong or they were wrong with their own assumption, so what else to do?? Just laugh!! And think what an ass, and why couldnt I just ask someone if that was true, I mean like I said earlier they are either gonna lie and say nothing, or even worse make up a lie. So I am going to try my hardest to stop assuming, but to be honest it will be hard...lol...that is pretty much it, one thing I can say is it will never stop, just like backstabbing, or talking behind ppl's backs. No matter how much we promise to do so and we all try to it will never stop. Which sucks, because it makes me feel like shit when I hear or even say something. One thing I wish and hope all my friends think of me is I am here for you to talk to about anything, yes we may all have our rough times and yes I am even guilty of breaking trust from a very good friend of mine. But we all learn from our mistakes and all the stuff that has been going on within the past 6 months or even year has helped me grow up and see that life is to short for stupid stuff!! And no matter how bad you think the situation is, I am here for you and always will be!! Try not to assume!! It only makes an Ass out of you and me ;)

...on that note, I guess that is all for now, told ya to sit back...I warned you right??? LOL

l8tr t8tr ; )~