mmmk so nothing new going on, My grandfather is still not doing the best, I have been good going to visit him on a daily basis, I go when I can. The weird thing is I never had a close relationship with him, when my parents were married one year my grandfather came to Los Angeles and stayed with us for a long time, that was back in 1987, when my sister was born...please I still cannot believe a lot of times how quick time passes. I remember the day she was born....maybe what I might do is blog some stories about my past and about me...but anywho back on track. He is glad to see us all visit, but I think he thinks something is up. All of a sudden no one is around to visit and now we are all there. But it is not like I was really avoiding him all this time. He knew we were back living in Canada, I am here for 10 years. He is a cranky old man and he just wanted to be left alone. He has had a rough life and did some shitty ass things in his days. Like beating his wife and children on a daily basis, and a constant drunk. But that is one thing my dad always shared with me and one reason why he does not have a close relationship with him to this day. Not sure what the prognosis for my grandfather at this time, but he still has little or no circulation in his legs and if that cannot be helped than he will never be able to go live at home, he might end up moving to a nursing home, which atleast if he were alive that would be good. But sometimes I wonder if I would like to live in as much pain as he is living in now. I feel so bad, because the pain in his eyes it just makes me want to curl up and cry. Medicine is not helping him AT ALL, but I dont know what to do....

...so I have come to the conclusion that I think I am going to blog some stories about my life and what got me to where I am now....

Lets see how this turns out