Does It Ever End?

..Well nothing is changing, life is just crazy, I cannot sleep I cannot stop thinking and just having weird ass dreams. Right now I feel like I dont have anyone to talk to so I am choosing to write. Well still not talking to the other fella...it drives me nuts when ppl are silent and just wont talk. I dont know if he is purposely ignoring me or what. So it has been about 2 weeks since we talked and I finally got the nerve to call him and see what is going on. No answer, not sure if it was bad timing or he just didnt answer the phone. I dont know, I am just guessing he was busy. So I wont dwell on that. Man I sound so pathetic but I feel better writing about it. So next thing is to send an email..so I sent it this am, who knows what will happen, I know lunch is at 1pm and hopefully he will check his mail and write back to me. It was hard to write, asking him if things were ok and if he wanted me to just to back of indefinately and if he says yes as much as it hurts I will do so. I am just having a hard time here today at work and really dont want to be here. If he doesnt write back to me today I am assuming he does not want to even be friends, which is cool with me..I guess..lol...I cannot believe I am going on like this and why am I letting this get to me? I am confused...well this is it for the week, hopefully I will have a good weekend. I am going drinking on Sat and getting trashed...lol..lets see what happens. I will be in trouble if I see him out and I am drunk...ok well I will write monday

later days