...Day off....

ok well just another one of those day, things are going pretty good in my life, got some cool friends, met some real nice people online and things just seem to be going so far so good....knock on wood...there is this guy online, his name is Mark, and he is from australia...we have been talking for almost a month now, hard to believe and we have just become good friends. I can honestly say I don't have any romantic feelings for him, just think it is hard to fall in love with someone online, especially if you don't even know what they look like..but it is better to know the person than base a relationship on looks, could be one of the reasons I am not with anyone....sometimes I really think about myself and how I wish I was not the size I am....I know that I am the one who eats the food and doesnt have the energy to work out and get myself into shape, but sometimes I wish there was a miracle pill I could take and just become another person..I am a very confident woman and I am proud of myself, just wish that I can get myself motivated....but I think I am at that point now, I was talking to a friend online and we were just talking about eating out and going to BK and it just all of a sudden hit me, that I have to take control of my life and get my ass in gear! We are all joining the gym,and we are doing the Atkins diet, I know that it isnt a diet, it is a lifestyle change, but there are real results with this plan and going to the gym will help me tone what I lose.. I really hope I can stick with this, because I need to do something..part of me is scared that I will not find anyone to love me if I dont lose weight and the other part of me wants to smack myself in the head and say wake up idiot....lol...so today my mood is kinda mellow...just thinking of life and hoping I can motivate myself to lose weight, the girls will help motivate me, that is the best support having friends to battle the same fight with ya...but on that note, I am gonna have a good day!! I am not working and that is the best feeling ever...just wish I had some money...lol...can't always be satisfied eh?????.... LOL